I fully understand here that he was an important figure to some, that people loved his songs and all, but what I don’t understand is the media response. I don’t think it’s so much just this case, but this is the one I’m going to go off on a tangent about. Yes, he died. Millions of people die a day, but yet when I turn on CNN or Fox News or when I go to the websites to catch up on my world news all I see at first is him. Seriously? A week later there is nothing more important going on in the world than his ass? It’s frustrating to me. This country seems to have it’s priorities completely ass backwards. I could completely understand that day it happened and maybe things here and there afterwards about him in the news, but honestly is his death more important than the other news? This isn’t the first time this has happened, but every time it happens it never fails to boggle my mind.
Christians…
June 15, 2009 at 1:12 am (Daily life, Ponderings)
Here is going to be my next rambling on… I don’t understand Christians at all. Not all mind you, but those hard core opinionated ones that you all know exactly what I mean when I say that. I’ve decided that I am a Christian, I believe in God, but I don’t understand them. What are they so afraid of? I honestly have liked Dan Brown’s books, the latest one made into a movie was Angels and Demons. I have listened to all the backlash about the book and now the movie. I do not think it has the Church painted in such a horrible light. Just presenting what was.. now there is one psycho Father, but it does show some remarkable ones as well. How is that so different from life? They are people even if they take the vows of the Church. Not to mention of the ones I have spoken to NONE have read the book or watched the movie.
This leads me towWhat is the fear of people thinking about something other than what they think people should think about? God gave us all free will and the power of thought, of logic. So what is the harm in something other than what they believe is correct? I honestly don’t get it at all. They think they know what one should wear, talk, read, write and act. Do they? Can you honestly say that because I have a tongue ring that goes against God’s plan and now I’m not acceptable in His eyes? Because someone has tattoos or multiple peircings or something else they are not acceptable? Who made them the one to choose? I personally know I’m not better than anyone else, I’m a sinner and that is something I will be my entire life. All I can do is keep asking for forgiveness everytime I fall and try harder next time. Maybe next time a someone opens their mouth or starts to type against something else of that nature, maybe, just maybe, they need to check their own backyards.
All Mixed Up…
May 29, 2009 at 12:50 am (Daily life, Love)
Here I am again with my mind going every which way at once… I’ve been trying to put into coherent thought to post something here, but I cannot get it. So, I’m just going to ramble on for a bit…
I know I wanted to post what was on the birthday card Dan got me. I don’ t know why, but it touched me and I keep walking by it where I hung it up on my door and it never fails to make me feel like I’m ready to tear up.
I will love you on days when you are perfect in my eyes, and on days when I wonder why you do the things you do. I will love you when you are the strong center that calms me, and when you want to rest in the comfort of my embrace… I will love you when you are confident and proud of everything that you stand for, and when you need me to remind you how far you’ve come, and that there is no limit to how far you can go… Now and forever, come what may, just as you are… I will love you.
I know most are thinking that there is nothing too special about that, about picking out that card, but to me there is. I’m never great at describing how I feel and this is no exception, but that simple card touched me.
The next thing I wanted to say was that I’m so very much afraid that one day Dan is going to wake up and realize that the kids and me is not what he wanted in his life, that I somehow ruined everything and that he will hate me for it. I love him so very much and I do not want him to change anything about him. I actually love him just the way he is… (I know, it’s odd for a chick to say that, most feel as if they need to change something.) I just don’t want him to ever hate me… it’s a fear that I think I will always live with. He has said and shown me and written so many different things to essentially say that he will not do that and I trust him with my life. Hell, I trust him with not just my life, but the kids’ lives as well… I think I’m at the point now where I just have to trust in that faith I have in him, that he knows himself and in how he feels.
Enough of the doubt I suppose… I’m honestly in love with him. I love how he can simply look at me to make me smile or make me just want to go to him and wrap my arms around him, how he plays with the children, how he walks up behind me and wraps his arms around me, how he helps without me asking, how he seems to know what I’m thinking, how he holds me tight, how his lips feel on mine. If I got to spend eternity with him it still would not be enough time… Time away from him is absolutely dreadful. I cannot sleep as well as I do when I am with him and I do not feel the same at all. I feel so… down. I move, doing what needs done. I smile when appropriately, but there is this place in me that just feels like something is missing when he’s away…
We told our parents about us moving in together (or shacking up as Harry puts it) and about our marriage coming up. Surprisingly they all took it rather well it seems. I suppose time will tell how it goes. I want everyone to be happy for us and to like what we are doing, but I know Dan and I and I know that we will move ahead with what we feel is right. Dan keeps telling me to trust him that it will all work out and I want to leave this for him… Dan, I do trust you and I will always trust you, for you have my heart with you and I wouldn’t want it any other way. I love you.
Nicky, Nicky, Nicky…
May 11, 2009 at 4:28 am (Daily life, Mischeviousness)
So, why am I still up after midnight on Mother’s day? Well, I suppose it’s not Mother’s day anymore, but that’s not the point. My Mom had the kids last night and today and let Nicky take a nap today until 1500… yeah me. He’s just not giving it up… he’s gotten into my lotion and poured it all over my window sill… he will not stay in bed for the life of him. I feel like there is no good answer here. I tried staying in there with him but that didn’t work. I stay out for a bit and he gets up…. I leave and keep checking on him and he just waits for me to look in on him. I know this is normal, but that doesn’t help sometimes when you are by yourself and you just are simply exhausted… oh well. He cannot be up forever right?
There’s a Spider in My Car!!!
May 4, 2009 at 12:14 am (Daily life, Duh Moments)
So, those who know me know that I’m afraid of spiders… maybe not deathly, but spastic definitely. I’m driving along and come to a stop light. Now, mind you I have my window rolled down, singing along (no matter how horribly, but that’s a subject for another day) to some music and all of a sudden I see what seems to me a huge white spider in my car, near my hand! Eek! Thankfully I kept my foot on the brake and grabbed a CD case for Matilda on CD that me and the kids had just listened to and took three tries to kill it… just the thought is still making me shudder…
Nicky and the Aquarium… part duex
May 1, 2009 at 12:48 pm (Daily life, Mischeviousness)
So, here I am again with another fish tale I suppose. My sweet little and completely innocent (yeah, right…) Nicky again decided that the fish were hungry. He climbed up on a few things to get to the fish food that I had purposefully had up high so he couldn’t get to and dumped the entire thing into the aquarium again. Then he had gotten the fish net and was fishing out the fish… now, I don’t know how he does it truthfully. Those fish are hard for me to catch half the time… The difference this time though when he caught them was he was just dumping them out on the floor. Surprisingly, only one died. Officially, I feel like the worst Mom ever for not being able to keep the permanent eye on him and keep him from getting into this mess… I now have a very clean aquarium and a new hiding spot for the fish food though.
My Angel
April 23, 2009 at 10:20 pm (Daily life, Love)
So here I am again putting some lyrics up, but honestly I could not help but to. The song just made me think so much of Dan truthfully and how I was and how I feel about him. So, here it is… Halo by Beyonce.
Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they’re tumbling down
And they didn’t even put up a fight
They didn’t even make up a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
It’s the risk that I’m takin’
I ain’t never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace
You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You’re the only one that I want
Think I’m addicted to your light
I swore I’d never fall again
But this don’t even feel like falling
Gravity can’t forget
To pull me back to the ground again
Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace
You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away
Oh, Nicky…
April 11, 2009 at 11:06 pm (Daily life, Mischeviousness)
In true Nicky fashion he got into some more mischief. He woke up and without waking me up or even making a peep, he went in to the living room. Now, apparently the fish must have looked hungry. Certainly, we can all tell that fish look hungry right? So he dumped about a half of a container full of food into the aquarium. That should be enough right? Then for some reason unknown he thought they needed some lotion… yes, lotion. I don’t know, I honestly have no idea where that thought process went. Then because the tank was dirty he got out the bucket that I put them in and started to catch the fish… the only problem being that there was about an inch of water in the bucket. This is where I heard something and went to check things out. The one angelfish was swimming on it’s side. I was at a lost for words except for him to go to his room. I took all the fish out, extensively cleaned it and then put them back in. Now, the funny part is that we had two snails that hadn’t moved in over a week. All of a sudden they are moving now and motoring around the aquarium now. The shark (Bruce) now doesn’t chase the angelfish (Moe and Curly as Larry died a while back now). Which leads to the thought process that a little lotion will help your fish or either the near death experience will.
And, by the way, Nicky can now tell you that Mommy is the only one to feed or clean out the fish aquarium…
Easter
April 11, 2009 at 10:56 pm (Words of Wisdom from Children)
So, I decided I would ask the children what does Easter mean… Nicky said that it mean that the Easter bunny brings him candy. Of course, Nicky thinks with his tummy a lot. He even told me one day that his tummy is telling him that it’s hungry. Shannon, however, said that it was the day Jesus Roasted… yes, roasted. I couldn’t help but start laughing at that. I knew what she meant and I was happy that she thought of it like that, but it was still hilarious to me.
Remember the Date
April 1, 2009 at 2:08 pm (Daily life, Love)
So, Dan and I finally set a date. September 4, 2010. Providing we don’t just up and decide to do it sooner, that will be the day. We both wanted sooner, but for the sake of our families we decided that waiting just a little bit wouldn’t hurt. I cannot tell you how excited I am at the idea of us getting married. We are also thinking of going to get tattoos done that weekend as well. No, we are not getting each others names… It made sense to have it on Labor Day weekend so that it would be easier on Dan and our families that wanted to celebrate with us. In true Dan and Shelley fashion it’s not going to be anything spectacular and elaborate. Hopefully we can have a small wedding at Inniswoods near Columbus with his Grandfather or Uncle preforming the ceremony. From there have a party afterwards at his Mom and Dad’s house. I cannot even see us dressing up for this and I hope that he wears his sandals truthfully. We can have my sister and his brother as the maid of honor and best man (which I will threaten them both that they better be there on time) and Shannon as flower girl and Nicky as ring bearer. I doubt my family showing up truthfully. Nobody from Alabama is going to come up here for this, but I would think that my Mom, Ron, Nanny, my sister and my two nephews and hopefully Aunt Rita and her family could be there. It will most likely be mainly his family, but that’s fine. They are a nice group of people that I cannot wait to get to know better. I actually am a bit nervous that I will fall flat on my face or something, but I honestly think it will be a wonderful day. We didn’t have much planned in the way of a honeymoon except maybe staying a night or two at a hotel and let the children stay with one of our parents. Honestly, we wouldn’t be making it out of the room much so it just makes sense. So, remember to keep the date September 4, 2010!
