The Second Amendment

I have never claimed to be an expert on anything, anything at all.  I commonly can see both sides to arguments and it may take me a while to come to a decision.  The issue of gun control being one of those.  I do not own a gun nor any other weapon except my kitchen knives.  That is just my choice currently.  I was taught how to shoot at a very young age by my father and I would prefer that my children learn to shoot, learn gun safety, and learn to respect guns as I did.

Lately here there was a mass shooting at a L.A. Fitness.  (Completely senseless tragedy and my heart goes out to the victims and their families.)  This has led more people to talk about stricter gun control.  The need to ban all hand held guns and to place a 25 year sentence if you are caught with one.  I do not believe this is the answer… how many times do we need to prove that by banning something you are making sure that one thing is going to be more desired?  (I am very strongly against banning books.)

Often you will hear this with the debate about the Second Amendment (A well regulated Militia being necessary to the security of a free State, the right of the people to keep and bear Arms shall not be infringed).  Now, this does not GRANT the right, it preserves and guarantees the right to be able to have Arms.  It does not also say that you have to be in a Militia to have Arms nor is it a condition.  There has been arguments that we do not need a Militia in this day and time so we do not need to bear arms as a collective.  After much research I believe the founding fathers added this part to insure a Militia could be formed if the need were to ever arise and to give a reason why the right to bear Arms must be protected.  I know I must be doing an awful job explaining this so I would encourage people to go look it up, read up on it and come to your own conclusion.

I fully believe that banning handguns or such will not stop the violence such as was here.  There is a bigger problem, a root cause, that needs to be examined more and there is no simple answer.  Obviously, I do not have the answer either.  How I wish I did… Here I wanted to leave two of my favorite quotes about the subject.

They that can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety.
—Benjamin Franklin, Historical Review of Pennsylvania, 1759.

To model our political system upon speculations of lasting tranquility, is to calculate on the weaker springs of the human character.
—Alexander Hamilton

Facebook…

Alright, so I completely get the point of things like facebook, Myspace, twitter (even though the name of that one could be improved… I mean it honestly sounds like you have to go to the bathroom).  However, their purpose and what they are used for now are completely two different things.  I don’t do Myspace… I think that is too much for the kids or mentally kids.  Twitter I just cannot get past the name.  I did sign up for Facebook for one reason.  I knew that one of my friends from high school was there and I wanted to find her and a few others.  Not many mind you, I didn’t like them that much when I was stuck in that damn place.  I find now that everyone wants to add me as a friend (even those that didn’t talk to me then).  Oh, and even my ex husband wanted to be my friend on there.. and is completely pissed that I ‘ignored’ him and it’s like I don’t exist on there.  (That is one application I would love to have in real life.)  They bugged me to add some pictures, so I did… but then I go and read their postings and just shake my head.  I don’t care to know every moment of the day what you are doing.  Not at all do I care if you are relaxing by the pool, then eating dinner, then watching a movie.  Honestly your life cannot be that entertaining if you are attached to Facebook this much.  There is one that every day will post that she’s doing this or that with or without her ‘adorable husband’.  I’m not joking, that line is there every day.  One friend just sent a message saying to respond to that message or he was going to take you off of his friend list.  Really?  Because I don’t care.  I can see comments here and there and I have done them because it seems that this is the way to communicate with your ‘friends’ when you really don’t want to sit and write out an email.  Don’t even get me started on all the ‘invitations’ to do all the bunch of crap that I don’t even care about.  In my free and bored time I have done some of these and I can tell you I’m not impressed at all.  Apparently there are those that take this completely seriously… I as you can see am completely not one of those.

Michael Jackson…

I fully understand here that he was an important figure to some, that people loved his songs and all, but what I don’t understand is the media response.  I don’t think it’s so much just this case, but this is the one I’m going to go off on a tangent about.  Yes, he died.  Millions of people die a day, but yet when I turn on CNN or Fox News or when I go to the websites to catch up on my world news all I see at first is him.  Seriously?  A week later there is nothing more important going on in the world than his ass?  It’s frustrating to me.  This country seems to have it’s priorities completely ass backwards.  I could completely understand that day it happened and maybe things here and there afterwards about him in the news, but honestly is his death more important than the other news?  This isn’t the first time this has happened, but every time it happens it never fails to boggle my mind.

Christians…

Here is going to be my next rambling on… I don’t understand Christians at all.  Not all mind you, but those hard core opinionated ones that you all know exactly what I mean when I say that. I’ve decided that I am a Christian, I believe in God, but I don’t understand them.  What are they so afraid of?  I honestly have liked Dan Brown’s books, the latest one made into a movie was Angels and Demons.  I have listened to all the backlash about the book and now the movie.  I do not think it has the Church painted in such a horrible light.  Just presenting what was.. now there is one psycho Father, but it does show some remarkable ones as well.  How is that so different from life?  They are people even if they take the vows of the Church.  Not to mention of the ones I have spoken to NONE have read the book or watched the movie.

This leads me towWhat is the fear of people thinking about something other than what they think people should think about?  God gave us all free will and the power of thought, of logic.  So what is the harm in something other than what they believe is correct?  I honestly don’t get it at all.  They think they know what one should wear, talk, read, write and act.  Do they?  Can you honestly say that because I have a tongue ring that goes against God’s plan and now I’m not acceptable in His eyes?  Because someone has tattoos or multiple peircings or something else they are not acceptable?  Who made them the one to choose?  I personally know I’m not better than anyone else, I’m a sinner and that is something I will be my entire life.  All I can do is keep asking for forgiveness everytime I fall and try harder next time.  Maybe next time a someone opens their mouth or starts to type against something else of that nature, maybe, just maybe, they need to check their own backyards.

All Mixed Up…

Here I am again with my mind going every which way at once… I’ve been trying to put into coherent thought to post something here, but I cannot get it.  So, I’m just going to ramble on for a bit…

I know I wanted to post what was on the birthday card Dan got me.  I don’ t know why, but it touched me and I keep walking by it where I hung it up on my door and it never fails to make me feel like I’m ready to tear up.

I will love you on days when you are perfect in my eyes, and on days when I wonder why you do the things you do.  I will love you when you are the strong center that calms me, and when you want to rest in the comfort of my embrace… I will love you when you are confident and proud of everything that you stand for, and when you need me to remind you how far you’ve come, and that there is no limit to how far you can go… Now and forever, come what may, just as you are… I will love you.

I know most are thinking that there is nothing too special about that, about picking out that card, but to me there is.  I’m never great at describing how I feel and this is no exception, but that simple card touched me.

The next thing I wanted to say was that I’m so very much afraid that one day Dan is going to wake up and realize that the kids and me is not what he wanted in his life, that I somehow ruined everything and that he will hate me for it.  I love him so very much and I do not want him to change anything about him.  I actually love him just the way he is… (I know, it’s odd for a chick to say that, most feel as if they need to change something.)  I just don’t want him to ever hate me… it’s a fear that I think I will always live with.  He has said and shown me and written so many different things to essentially say that he will not do that and I trust him with my life.  Hell, I trust him with not just my life, but the kids’ lives as well… I think I’m at the point now where I just have to trust in that faith I have in him, that he knows himself and in how he feels.

Enough of the doubt I suppose… I’m honestly in love with him.  I love how he can simply look at me to make me smile or make me just want to go to him and wrap my arms around him, how he plays with the children, how he walks up behind me and wraps his arms around me, how he helps without me asking, how he seems to know what I’m thinking, how he holds me tight, how his lips feel on mine.  If I got to spend eternity with him it still would not be enough time… Time away from him is absolutely dreadful.  I cannot sleep as well as I do when I am with him and I do not feel the same at all.  I feel so… down.  I move, doing what needs done.  I smile when appropriately, but there is this place in me that just feels like something is missing when he’s away…

We told our parents about us moving in together (or shacking up as Harry puts it) and about our marriage coming up.  Surprisingly they all took it rather well it seems.  I suppose time will tell how it goes.  I want everyone to be happy for us and to like what we are doing, but I know Dan and I and I know that we will move ahead with what we feel is right.  Dan keeps telling me to trust him that it will all work out and I want to leave this for him… Dan, I do trust you and I will always trust you, for you have my heart with you and I wouldn’t want it any other way.  I love you.

Nicky, Nicky, Nicky…

So, why am I still up after midnight on Mother’s day?  Well, I suppose it’s not Mother’s day anymore, but that’s not the point.  My Mom had the kids last night and today and let Nicky take a nap today until 1500… yeah me.  He’s just not giving it up… he’s gotten into my lotion and poured it all over my window sill… he will not stay in bed for the life of him.  I feel like there is no good answer here.  I tried staying in there with him but that didn’t work.  I stay out for  a bit and he gets up…. I leave and keep checking on him and he just waits for me to look in on him.  I know this is normal, but that doesn’t help sometimes when you are by yourself and you just are simply exhausted… oh well.  He cannot be up forever right?

There’s a Spider in My Car!!!

So, those who know me know that I’m afraid of spiders… maybe not deathly, but spastic definitely.  I’m driving along and come to a stop light.  Now, mind you I have my window rolled down, singing along (no matter how horribly, but that’s a subject for another day) to some music and all of a sudden I see what seems to me a huge white spider in my car, near my hand!  Eek!  Thankfully I kept my foot on the brake and grabbed a CD case for Matilda on CD that me and the kids had just listened to and took three tries to kill it… just the thought is still making me shudder…

Nicky and the Aquarium… part duex

So, here I am again with another fish tale I suppose.  My sweet little and completely innocent (yeah, right…) Nicky again decided that the fish were hungry.  He climbed up on a few things to get to the fish food that I had purposefully had up high so he couldn’t get to and dumped the entire thing into the aquarium again.  Then he had gotten the fish net and was fishing out the fish… now, I don’t know how he does it truthfully.  Those fish are hard for me to catch half the time… The difference this time though when he caught them was he was just dumping them out on the floor.  Surprisingly, only one died.  Officially, I feel like the worst Mom ever for not being able to keep the permanent eye on him and keep him from getting into this mess… I now have a very clean aquarium and a new hiding spot for the fish food though.

My Angel

So here I am again putting some lyrics up, but honestly I could not help but to.   The song just made me think so much of Dan truthfully and how I was and how I feel about him.  So, here it is… Halo by Beyonce.

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they’re tumbling down
And they didn’t even put up a fight
They didn’t even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
It’s the risk that I’m takin’
I ain’t never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You’re the only one that I want
Think I’m addicted to your light

I swore I’d never fall again
But this don’t even feel like falling
Gravity can’t forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

Oh, Nicky…

In true Nicky fashion he got into some more mischief.  He woke up and without waking me up or even making a peep, he went in to the living room.  Now, apparently the fish must have looked hungry.  Certainly, we can all tell that fish look hungry right?  So he dumped about a half of a container full of food into the aquarium.  That should be enough right?  Then for some reason unknown he thought they needed some lotion… yes, lotion.  I don’t know, I honestly have no idea where that thought process went.  Then because the tank was dirty he got out the bucket that I put them in and started to catch the fish… the only problem being that there was about an inch of water in the bucket.  This is where I heard something and went to check things out.  The one angelfish was swimming on it’s side.  I was at a lost for words except for him to go to his room.  I took all the fish out, extensively cleaned it and then put them back in.  Now, the funny part is that we had two snails that hadn’t moved in over a week.  All of a sudden they are moving now and motoring around the aquarium now.  The shark (Bruce) now doesn’t chase the angelfish (Moe and Curly as Larry died a while back now).  Which leads to the thought process that a little lotion will help your fish or either the near death experience will.

And, by the way, Nicky can now tell you that Mommy is the only one to feed or clean out the fish aquarium…

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